I just returned from a transformative week in gorgeous Uvita, Costa Rica where I was living la pura vida and working at an event called Envision Festival.
As you may recall from my last blog post, I was a little apprehensive about going on vacation and sticking to the plan. I left on day 22 of my Whole 30, which is a strict Paleo diet of no grains, legumes, dairy, sugar, or alcohol. It’s really necessary to know all the ingredients in all the food you’re eating, however I wasn’t preparing my own food – I was being fed from the staff cafe at the event. All the food was lovingly prepared and nutritious. I always felt so very taken care of by them even when I repeatedly said, “No grains, no, not even rice, and no cheese or beans, si, no frijoles… no gracias, and no tortillas for my tacos. Just the fish (or the eggs), veggies, and that amazing banana salsa… si, si esta bien. Muchas Gracias!”
As I said, I was feeling nourished and had abundant energy despite working 8 or more hours each day. It was on my 3rd day at the event – day 25 of my whole 30 – that I found out that the eggs I’d been eating for breakfast were cooked with cream. I was pretty bummed when I found out and I really had no other choice but to eat them or not eat enough protein and go hungry. I was mulling in my disappointment for a while because I not only let myself down, I felt like I let down everyone who I’d talked to about the Whole 30. I know, I am way too hard on myself. Even though it was out of my control, I was still trying to figure out how I would communicate what happened and I figured taking responsibility would be the best way of restoring integrity. So here I am, coming clean. I’m not perfect and I did not make it all the way through my first Whole 30.
And, here’s where it gets interesting… I don’t know if anyone else is like me or would have done what I did next, but when I found out that my plan had been stifled, and after I’d gotten over my disappointment of failure, I felt a sense of relief. I gave myself a pass and later that evening allowed myself to imbibe alcohol… home made orange flavored absinthe, to be exact. From that point forward, I let go of the whole 30 and allowed myself to enjoy what was left of my (working) vacation… which included a few super delicious coconut cacao smoothies, a chimichanga (after which I felt totally ill), and some tequila in the following nights. Was there guilt? Yes. Why? I blame my high standards and thick conscious. But, can anyone sympathize? What would you have done, how would you have felt, if you were in my zapatos?
Alas, it is through experience that we live and learn… and this is what I took away from my time in Costa Rica:
- A strict diet, while on vacation, is absolutely masochistic;
- Never turn down home made absinthe or cacao smoothies;
- We’re all imperfect, we all make mistakes, and that’s okay as long as we learn from them;
- No matter how hard you try, you can’t please everyone;
- Don’t be too hard on yourself when a situation is out of your control;
- Pick yourself back up by your bootstraps and start over.
I did the best I could with what I had and since I’ve been home, I am (mostly) back to the plan… well that was, until this past Saturday when I was at a wedding in Napa and had peanut butter cake, champagne, and copious amounts of wine. Did I feel sick later? Oh yes… another lesson of live and learn.
Needless to say, I’ve learned a lot about my relationship with food during my Whole 30 (or Whole 25, rather) and I am pretty proud of the difference I feel because of it. I know what makes me feel vibrant and happy and what makes me feel unhealthy and irritable. Not to mention, take a look at my numbers! As of right now, since Tuesday, February 5th I have lost:
- 12 pounds;
- 2 inches from around my bust;
- 1 inch from around my waist;
- 2 inches from around my hips;
- 1 inch from around each of my thighs.
Do I have it all figured out? Nope, but I’m content with taking it day by day.
Am I getting back on the Whole 30 train? Yes, I’ll do it again… that is, sometime after next weekend’s company trip to Tahoe…
Live and Learn.
As always, your thoughts are welcomed in the comments section below.